But stuff like that can shake your confidence a bit. Which, for most of the artists I know, is often on shaky ground anyway. Every couple of weeks (sometimes more) I consider quitting this business and getting a "real" job. I mean, the thought of that makes me a little sick to my stomach, but sometimes it would be a lot easier just to go to work and come home and not have to worry about it. Not have to put yourself out there constantly just to be told no. I get sick of being "almost good enough." What do I have to do to break through that barrier of "almost?" I realize there will always be someone who is better at one thing than I am or who knows how to overcome another thing... but damn it, it gets frustrating sometimes. And maybe the easiest thing to do would be to put this on the back burner and go get a full time job.
But I did that. And I hated it. And I got nothing done. And I felt stagnant and trapped and miserable.
So right now, even though I feel frustrated and less than confident about my work, I am not stagnant and trapped and miserable. I'm still hopeful. I still believe that there are all kinds of possibilities out there. I just have to challenge myself. I have to figure out how to break through the "almost" to the "awesome." And it's going to take a shit-ton of hard work and pushing myself, even when I feel like quitting. And I'm going to consider quitting again. But then I'll go read The Alchemist and remember, "The secret of life is to fall seven times, and to get up eight times." I'll look at my pinboard Words to Live By and all the little inspirational quotes I've pinned up for times like these.
And I'll get on with it.